I don't have insurance.
This is a constant source of distress for me, especially recently. I've been sick for most of October, but I am also bipolar and desperately need to see someone about it. Probably I should just cross the border to Canada and see someone there. It's only like 5 hours away. X__X
My country might be good in some respects, but it treats healthcare like a business instead of a necessity. Fuck. that.
She called me about a month ago.
She said she wanted to talk, but that it had to be in person. I was extremely high for the conversation. How could I not be? My secret ex-girlfriend (who'd casually mentioned earlier that "we didn't really date, it was just a thing..." to our best friend) wants to have an in-person chat that seems fairly urgent.
So she's at my house. In my room. Telling me that she didn't realize that I'd felt that way. That she could have done things better, etc. Things my 16-year-old self needed to hear.
But. It's just weird, you know? Whatever she does now, it doesn't change how I felt then. It's-- I'm done. It's over and it's done and she knows and it'll be okay, for what that's worth. It's a stone lifted off of my chest, and I can finally breathe a little better. I didn't realize I was still so upset about it until I wasn't.
If you're going to friend my journal, fucking tell me who you are. This guessing shit is ridiculous.
Also, note that if I don't know you offline, we're not friends online, and I'm not going to add you. --with the exception of VERY few people.
If something is bothering you THAT badly, and you can do something about it (which you can, but you don't feel like it), stop being a fucking pussy and DO it. Really.
Maybe some of these people who offend you are being harsh, but maybe they've also got a point.
Think about it.
In the interim...
Most of the people on my LJ are getting deleted, because I don't feel like listening to the whining anymore.
A song with an active verb in the title
Counting Airplanes -- Train
A song about the news
American Pie -- Don McLean (I really couldn't think of what to put here, sorry)
A song that starts with a number
30 Whacks -- Dresden Dolls
A sharp song
Light with a Sharpened Edge -- The Used
A song about stars
Stars -- Switchfoot (LOL, don't judge me)
An enduring song
Whole Wide World -- Wreckless Eric
A song that isn't as nice as it sounds
Ldn -- Lily Allen (Because it's all cheerful when you're not listening to the words. There's a great juxtaposition of words/music vs. what the lyrics are saying.)
A song about watching
People Watching -- Jack Johnson
A song that compares
Fist Vs. Tact -- MxPx
A disdainful song
Stupid Girl -- Garbage
A claustrophobic song
The Noose -- A Perfect Circle
A song about a city
April in Paris -- Ella Fitzgerald
A song about the sky
Northern Sky -- Nick Drake